Posting after a long time I should have a lot to share. First of all my driving skills have improved, but I need to put some extra effort. Again I find myself in a self made mess. Wonder when I might be able to lead a life I always wanted to. After a long time I might be going home. For the last 5 years I never enjoyed my stay in my house. I always set high goals about what I should do back home but this time lets try something different and I hope I will have something more cheerful to write than these boring feelings.